What if I write another note? Will Nick see it? Do you think he rides Gojira over the rolling hills of Japan in his dreams, with angels gazing down and singing from Mt Fuji?

I'm sitting here writing yet another grant application. I'm thinking, On the one hand this is just like grad school: I'm so burned out, my brain is hurting, I can't express myself very well, and this project is so huge.

On the other hand, they pay me more (if I get it).